I was searching for a proper closure but I guess that will never ever happen. I closed that chapter yesterday. All it takes for something to end - six years. It was supposed to be built on trust as foundation; I was given assurance that it will never change for many, many years to come.
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
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Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Half of February 2014 is gone. Time flies by too fast and too soon. I have yet to achieve much.
Posted by Sue Me at 7:38:00 AM
Sunday, February 2, 2014
It's Chinese New Year and I honestly thought I'll enjoy myself with the feast and the reunions with people I rarely see. I thought I'll have aplenty of genuine smile plastered on my face but I just couldn't. All I could do was to mask the pain with smiles I am unsure of.
Posted by Sue Me at 12:38:00 AM
Saturday, January 18, 2014
Eversince 20 cents left for work to the East Coast, I'm alone most of the time. It was quite horrible at first especially on weekends. It felt like my world crumbled down because I have nothing to look forward on weekend. So I tried to occupy myself with things to do and I'm rather used to the idea of being alone. It's really not that bad. Sometimes I do get lonely but I couldn't bother much so weekends passed by really fast.
Posted by Sue Me at 4:09:00 AM
Friday, January 17, 2014
I am still trying to get used to the idea of writing 2014 instead of 2013. There are just so many scratches on my planner now. It has been more than two weeks into 2014. Honestly, I am not too sure if I have a good start.. yet.
I took a giant leap of faith late last year. I quit my job. It is not like I dislike my job but I just could no longer tolerate with lack of productivity at workplace. I am not the type of person where I could sit around all day and do nothing at all. I need to be working and tormenting my brain cells to work and to learn. So, I left. I know many have different opinions about my decision. I know it is not the best decision ever and I might regret it as well.. but I just felt that I needed to do something better about my career path.
I think I do have a little regret; maybe just a teeny weeny regret of my decision. But I cannot turn back time. I must embrace my decision and make a difference about it. I am slowly seeking for better opportunities out there. It is definitely not the easiest task to do. I received some rejection and water works as consequences. But everytime I am rejected, I knew for sure, God has better and greater things for me. I guess keeping strong faith and of course, efforts do make me feel better and stronger. After all, one of my New Year resolution is to minimize my water works.
What else have I done for the past two weeks or so? I did managed to clear a lot of junks from my room. I have never felt so organized for the longest time. I think I developed a teeny weeny OCD in the process of organizing and cleaning up my room. I am still organizing and finding ways to minimize dust and well.. fallen hair of mine. Tough, I would say. But nothing is impossible as long as I am determined. And I am very determined.
2014 may begin with some uncertainties but I am very sure that things will surface and I am certain things will be amazing for myself. After all, it is the Year of Crowning Glory. With Him, He will turn the impossible to possible.
" I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me." (Philippians 4:13)
Posted by Sue Me at 1:39:00 AM