Hatred = Love = Hatred

When you try to love it, you will just hate it. You can't seem to love it more with a hatred mental. Hatred brings love and love brings hatred. Make sense? Perhaps not..it's a little tad deeper.

I am feeling that at the moment.

I sibeh tak shiok this feeling.

I never like Accounting. I had to love it because it is one of my requirements for my major. Now I fucking hate it. I totally screwed the paper just now. Screw it kao kao. It was an easy paper if I put more effort on it. Perhaps more sleep for better focus.

This Spring semester, I am practically fucked screwed up. 7 subjects to torture me everyday and I am confirmed dead. Numbers and numbers and all I ever have in my mind was hatred. I hate numbers...well..except for money of course. One thing for sure, my CGPA fell tremendously compared to last semester.

Great..just great..what a way to end my semester!!!

I See Dead Bodies Everywhere

I am not Haley Joel Osment. I have no 6th sense. I think..

This is really creepy..

I walked out from my apartment to buy food. I need food badly. I was walking towards the guardhouse blindly and before I stepped my feet down. I shrieked upon a dead body of a RAT!! I was like.. OMG!! A dead rat flat on the ground. The rat's brain and stomach was flat and bloody. It was eeewwwwwwwwwwwwww...

The next day, I was walking to the bus stop and damn it..I saw a dead dog. WFT At first, I thought it was some cloth or something. The dead dog was rotting and the smell was horrible. It was foul smell. Still can see the dog's mouth opened. I think maggots will come and eat it up already. I shall avoid that path tomorrow. Yikes!!

Added more tension to my stories, I did a presentation on Nanking Massacre. More dead bodies.It's even more disturbing than the dead animals. Gosh..enough dead bodies for a day.

I don't want to see dead bodies anymore. Yikes..

The Lap Sap Party

Sasha told me about this Heineken Music event in Republic. Since I am like super stressed out, I called the KSCB bloggers to join me. The DJs were called Junk or rather Lap Sap in Chinese. I am not exactly a fan of Lap Sap. Went to chill and beerrrrrrrrrrrrr..I had like a glass and almost a bottle (*Zoe finished it for me*) and I was almost drunk. I didn't take any solid food. Bear in mind to eat before drinking.

The girls : Pretty, Gorgeous, Beautiful and Hot

The dudes

Anyway, it started with Ren picking up Stephy and then me. Then we picked up Zoe and her brother, Howe tagged along too. Later, Ren picked up his brother, Yen and we met up with Sherry and Billy in Sunway Pyramid. Sherry, sorry for keeping you guys waiting. *HUGS*

With Sherry

With Stephy Baby

The ever adorable Zoe (*your hair is fine*)

Then, we went to Republic and got ourselves comfy on the red huge plushy couch. Ren treated us 3 jugs of beer. Thanks Ren and promised you that I will belanja you makan next time. We were just chilling and obviously camwhore. We bloggers will never miss out any chance to camwhore. Hahaha..We saw KinkyBlueFairy but didn't managed to take a picture with her though. Met up with Neeraj, Thasha and her cousin there as well.The gig was well..not so my genre of music. This dude (*I don't recall his name*) was singing this song that goes like...

Fuck my head..fuck you..fuck me..something fuck??!!

Beer and Starbucks??!!



With Neeraj, Thasha and her cousin

Ren The Pimp aka Driver

The guy who sang the fuck song

Hot chick rocking it out...

I heart this pic

We left early and we went to Mcdonalds (*Damn it*) in SS15. Yea..I never been to Asia Cafe. Laugh all you want.. Tiuuuuuuuuuuu We were chatting and all. It is so much more fun than in Republic. We got free refill of Coke there. Thanks to Sherry. Then Nick came and joined us for awhile. Good things had to end and it ended about 2am. Was it earlier??

One damn funny incident occured in Sunway 2 parking lot. Billy lost his car there and made us waited for like 15 minutes. WTF He lost his car in the carpark??!! I have the urge to write this because he made us kept this as a secret. Hahaha..it is now out for public display. Sherry and I were camwhoring while waiting for Billy to look for his car. Guess what? My N95 finally kantoi for good. Great..

Gosh...... I miss all of them already. Can't wait for the next outing already!! Woohoo..

Editted : Tiuuuuuuuuuuu Blogspot for not letting me upload my last picture before I post this entry.

Ever Ever After

I know I am super crazy. I heart Enchanted. I watch it like 20 times or perhaps more. It is indeed a very lame and cheesy movie but I like it. Hahaha..I heart it and I don't care about other people's review.

Happily ever after sounded so real in that movie. Perhaps it does exist somewhere. Anyway, ain't my problem. I am not in the mood for love nor I need anyone at the moment. Reality sucks!(*This statement made me sound like a 15 years old kid..diu*)

I heart Pip. Sooooo cute

Here is a song from the movie. Ever, Ever After by Carrie Underwood and I heart it too.

Ever ever after

Storybook endings

Fairy tales coming true

Deep down inside

We want to believe they still do

In our secretest heart

It's our favorite part of the story

Let's just admit

We all want to make it to

Ever ever after

If we just don't get it our own way

Ever ever after

It may only be a wish away

Start a new fashion

Wear your heart on your sleeve

Sometimes you reach what's realest

By making believe

Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world

You even might wind up

Being glad to be you

Ever ever after

Though the world will tell you

It's not smart

Ever ever after

The world can be yours

If you let your heart

Believe in ever after

No wonder your heart

Feels it's flying

Your head feels it's spinning

Each happy ending's

A brand new beginning

Let yourself be enchanted

You just might break through

To ever ever after

Forever could even start today

Ever ever after

Maybe it's just one wish away

Your ever ever after

Ever ever ever after

(I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss)

For ever ever after

The Greatest Invention Ever

I had my LAN exams yesterday. I know exams on Saturday. WTF I didn't manage to sleep so well the night before. I think I didn't sleep at all because I had some interuptions. Don't ask me what. I was like..maybe I was dreaming. Anyway, back to my exams..


I didn't remember those Moral Values and all. Everything seems to look the same to me. What my friend, AuYong did was he snapped a pic of his notes and Bluetooth it to everyone. Yea??!


BLUETOOTH


The one device that you use to transfer pictures and audios for free from computer to phone or vice versa.


I am a bit hangover at the moment. I put it in a conversation form. Funnier I hope..

Me: Die lo..I don't remember those values. How la?

AuYong: Aiya..can one la..

CY : Snap pic with your camera and then copy from phone lo.

Me: Want like that meh? My camera phone not clear wo..

AuYong: Never mind..I take pic and Bluetooth to you.

*Sending the notes to everyone*

Yee Kit: Wahlao..can zoom and see the notes somemore..

CY: Wah..yea lo..see this one..subjective and relative values..

Me: WTF

Conversation above was roughly like that. I can't recall much what they said or even who said it.

Proof of what we did..



In the end, we did not copy. Hahaha..we are good students. Kids, don't ever ever cheat in exams.

Happy Studying and Cracking Your Skull Open!!

Depression Haunts Me Again

I was trying to refrain myself from writing emo posts again. I guess it didn't really work.I just finish crying. It's the third time for today. I know crying is bad. It is never good. It makes one person more unhappy. For myself, crying is the hardest thing ever. I tried to stop but stopping seems hard.

Stress and loneliness are the bestest friends I have here. I just need to talk to someone when I am alone or even stressed. I just need a shoulder to cry on. I am longing for someone.

I think I know why I was so upset just now. Baa Baa didn't reply my messages and he is leaving soon to Vietnam. How can he leave without saying goodbye to me? We are such good friends but I supposed he has other commitments. I was upset too because I am having stress. Whatever I read doesn't seem to go into my brain. My brain is pretty empty at the moment.

I need a clear mind so I could focus. I need those grades desperately.

Earth Day 2008 - Part 2

After all the Freeze around college and roadside, it just ain't enough. So we had performances for Earth Day. This shows I heart the Earth like a lot. What I did was just simple. I was the director, actor, nagger and Nobel Prize Winner. Hahaha.. I was like nagging everyone to comefor rehearsal and all. I am like the aunty there and guess what..my role for my scene is aunty. WTF

It is a very simple performance which has five scenes about pollution. You know la..pollution is like everywhere. I mean everywhere. Imagine Planet Earth is smelly and filthy. Even aliens don't bother invading us anymore. They rather bored themselves in their planets instead. That was crap. Anyway, who would want to leave in a filthy place right? Dirty air, dirty water and dirty land. You will probably die way before you could even survive. Basically, Earth Day is a damn good day to create awareness to everyone that it's important to save Earth while it's still kinda healthy.

The performances were great. It was fun though tiring. Great!! Dr. Steven gave all of us full marks. I am hoping to get A for Public Speaking. Pray hard that I won't screw my Persuasive Speech on Monday. You guys can watch my performance here and the pics are here too.

Here is the sneak preview of what we did for Earth Day.


The other group


Scene 1 : Air Pollution

Scene 2: Water Pollution

Scene 3: Land Pollution



Public Speaking Wednesday class


My team members. You guys are the best!



With Jo, the main actress


Sham, the main actor


I am this tall. Damn it!


Shaun, thanks for helping out.

Earth Day 2008 - Part 1

I know I am not a very nature kinda person but I do my part to save the world too. I recycle. Yea..you hear me again..I RECYCLE and it's good to recycle. Earth Day was yesterday and my college obviously as usual had events for Earth Day.

I had class early in the morning. After my awful and another bad attempt on Accounting quiz, I went straight to my Freeze fun. Freeze is actually an event to save energy during Earth Day.They had it in Sunway Pyramid recently and I was supposed to go but didn't manage to due to some miscommunication. Sorry Zoe, Ren Ren and Sherry. I can't believed I miss the fun. Why Freeze? You see..we human beings of planet Earth moved around everyday, every minute and every second. We constantly produced energy because we move around a lot. The Earth can't really accomodate such a huge amount of energy. So in order to save Planet Earth, we freeze for 5 minutes to save Earth from getting too stuffed. In Sabah, they switched off the main switch for a few hours to save energy.

What I did was just froze there for a few minutes and hopefully I save a bit of Planet Earth. So a bunch of us went around college and ambushed some classes. We just froze there for a few minutes with our banners. Everyone was like wtf what are they doing?? We just froze on a spot for a few minutes and left. LOL..

We then went to the roadside. That is the coolest part of all. Some of us stand in the middle of the road on the divider and some stand near the road. We created a traffic jam. Cars were slowing down to see what we were doing. Some honked their horns to show support. Some showed thumb ups to show support. It was indeed fun. Luckily no policeman there that time or we are so dead. We jaywalk..Hahaha..

Freeze and you shall save the Earth a bit. Make a difference today..more on Earth Day in Part 2.

The Truth Is Out..

Remember the riddle you were guessing so hard here??

The truth will be reveal within minutes or perhaps seconds in this blog. I get like lots of answers from a lot of people. Some guessed the correct animal but wrong reason. Most of the ones who guessed gave the wrong answers.

The answer is

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THE PIG

but why??

BECAUSE THE PIG HIDES IN CHU CHEONG FAN.

CHU = PIG, CHEONG = INTESTINE and FUN = DRUGS

Translate everything into Cantonese.

It is damn fucking lame but I don't care. You guys asked for it. Wakaka..

A Riddle For All

This is something for everyone. A riddle or perhaps a damn lame joke for you all to guess.

One day, a pig, kangaroo and monkey are taking drugs. They were feeling damn high and suddenly the policeman comes to catch them.

Which of the following animal will hide the drugs and why?

Answer will be given within 30 hours.

Have fun cracking your brain.

Thanks For The Hugs!!

I just put a message on MSN : I need hugs desperately

I got lots of virtual hugs. Thanks guys!! You guys rock my undies off (*quoted from Ah Pek*) . I believed many of you must be thinking. What the fuck is wrong with Sue until she is so emo?

I am fine but a little tad stressed and disturbed. WHY???

1. My exam is in 2 weeks and I am not prepared especially Accounting. I am so dead.

2. My performance is in 2 days and everyone is not ready. Great.

3. I have Persuasive Speech Assessment on Wednesday and I am not prepared. Why? I am doing a topic on Nanking Massacre and the images are damn disturbing. I get like a little disturbed with it especially after I watched the documentary.

4. I feel fat and I really mean it. Gained like super a lot. I tend to binge when I am stressed.

5. I feel disorganized because of my messy room. I need to clean it.

6. I need to organize myself fast.

That's about it. I am making myself stress. How la my life...

I need a break. A well deserving break after exams.

Personality or Age Gap?

Many people asked me why I mixed with older people rather than people my age. I do mix around with people my age. I am pretty balanced. To me, age is definately not a barrier to get to know more people. Many find it as a barrier of communication. Perhaps communication between children and parents as an example. Obviously there is a huge gap between them because the parents are authority and children are the minor in a household. SO that is indeed a very bad comparison.

I have no idea wtf what I just said. I am in a moment where my brain is damn blank. I was really angry last night. Some doink provoked my anger when I am actually in a chilling mood. I seriously have no idea how can I communicate with him for such a long period. So many years but yet I never understand him. I supposed I refused to understand him due to his personality. Sometimes, I do wonder if he actually cares for me. He claimed that he does but they way of him showing his care for me is soooooooooooo wrong. I can't accept it. Sometimes, I don't give a damn about him contacting me or even talking to me. I know it would ended up as a huge fight like yesterday. I didn't bother replying after awhile. I can't lose and he can't lose either. A fight we had and that's it..it will probably be forgotten soon. I just don't understand him. SO does he towards me.

No people..I am not talking about William. I miss him too much to even fight with him.

I am not going to self praise but I think I am pretty much mature or rather intellect in a way. I like to read a lot and I mean a lot. I haven't really start on my books yet due to the fact that I have exams in 2 weeks and another performance in 2 days. Great! I talk a lot to people who are twice my age about current issues as well as politics. I like the term " Listen and Learn" . Thats how I get my knowledge. Sometimes age doesn't matter when it comes to knowledge. There is a possibilty that a 5 year old might know more than a 15 years old kid. It all depends on that person's personality. I would say personality plays a damn huge role when it comes to communication.

I can talk to a 44 year old adult but I could find it hard to talk to a 21 year old adult. Why? Clash personalities. It's sad but I guess that is life..

I still have no fucking idea what I said. Great..

Ultimate Frisbee Party 2008

I know this sounds super lame but I just feel like writing it out.

I HEART ADP !! (*only my college one la*)

Another great event organised by the Fayette Student Council and Frisbee Club yesterday. Students, lecturers and staff of SEGi college under one roof partying away is definately a great Friday night. Being a great student of SEGi College, I attended it and invited some of my bloggers friends. I even invited my best friend, Liane. She brought her Chris along. Hehehe..I can't bring my William unfortunately. FYI, I have many best friends.

Liane and me (*I miss her already*)

I like this pic. (*darn funny*)

The game started in USJ 2 field with a few people. Bad turnout at the field though they are enjoying themselves. I play with Zoe a little while before all of us headed back to college for BBQ. BBQ was tons of fun though I was running around like mad. I invited a few bloggers and they showed up.

List of URLS : Zoe, Nick, Wen Pink (*She is a regular at KSCB) , Sherry, Ren, Yoei and AD

The fun begin by some speeches by Dr. Steven and Mr. Leighton. Food was burned but heck..it was fun. The place was packed. Pictures are taken everywhere. I swear to you. You can see flashes of lights every minute and it's not lightning. It was raining but yet everyone was having fun dancing and obviously eating. Freebies were given in our classic SEGi College plastic bags. Here are some camwhoring pics I took with some people.

Clockwise : Dr. Steven, Justin, Zoe, Wen, Jennifer and myself

With Shaun, Pipo and Cynthia

Random pic with Zuh (* wtf funny hor *)


Pictures won't be complete without Sasha

The Hitz. Fm Cruisers were there to give out some freebies. Courtesy to Sasha who called them to spice up the party. I got myself a magazine called 24/7 . Haven't flip it yet. I chickened out in a game caled Shower. I can't embarassed myself in the crowd. That would be soooooooooooo wrong. Videos were taken and history was made. Dr. Steven and Mr. Leighton indeed are the people who made the history in SEGi College.No videos would be shown due to some privacy.

Adrian and Chunky Monkey from Hitz.Fm


Their truck


Justin the Shower Pole


The lucky girls (From left to right : Nadrah, Jennifer, Sherry and Wen Pink)

It ended quite early and it was raining during the entire process. I went yumcha with Sherry, Ren and Ah Pek. It was nice hanging out with them though Ah Pek was trying really hard to hit on those Bangla at the coffee shop. Psst..he has fetishes for Bangla. He even looked like one.

Me with Ren


The guys camwhore too (*damn disturbing, I tell you*)


Ah Pek The Bangla

Damages done. I am sick and I am fat. Thank you very much!

Happy Burpday, Sis!!

I wasn't so close with my sister. The middle sister to be precise. I think I am not so close to both of my sisters. I got closer to them when I am a little older. It's hard when two persons of different personalities or commons become sisters. Anyway, I can't believe that I will be saying this..

I miss my sisters.

I know wtf right? That is so unlike me la..

Today is my Grandma and Sister's birthday. They shared the same birthday. I can't be there to celebrate AGAIN with them. I can only blog. This is soooooooooo sad wei.

HAPPY BURPDAY SIS and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GRANDMA!!!

and no.I didn't get her a birthday present because I am cheapskate. LOL!!

She camwhored with MY CAMERA!! I sibeh sien see the same pics again and again.

I like this pic because it made her lookk FATTTTTTTTT. Wakakakaa...I am such a good sister. Giving her fame in my blog.