EMPAT Jatuh, SATU Pergi?

I finished FOUR papers and I got ONE more to go. I can't wait!! I can smell my FREEDOM already...lol..actually I can smell my Victoria Secret Lotion.

One more Marketing paper and I am out from that cold, freezing exam hall. Then then, I am going to get my FREE ice cream. I been waiting for it since Monday. And I get to go pak toh with 20 cents which I have waited for so uber long. I got so much to do but yet so little time.

The most exciting of all would be my Aussie trip in 2 more weeks. Woohoo..one week of leisure and fun. I am gonna make sure I go for exercises and practice my Accounting skills for next semester. I have a freaking double chin. Double sigh..

3 chapters to go and I am good to go. Should I start learning cycling? Hmm??

FEVER

What's with these swine flu thingy? Everyone seems to be blogging about it. It's getting really annoying when EVERYONE blogs about it. I think the newspapers and Internet gave enough information to feed my brilliant mind. As long as people keep away from pork from Mexico and some other countries, you are pretty much alright. And and if our government wants to kill the innocent piggies in our country, I am going to be so pissed. I need my pork fix once in awhile.

I am having final exams fever now. Took 2 papers today. I think I did alright. I was burning midnight oil till 4am in Mcdonalds with 20 cents. He was doing nothing and accompanied me the whole night. Hahaha.. I am a pampered diva. I had TWO sundae cones to destress. It worked well, very well.

I prayed before I went for my exams. I can't pray in tongue so I pray by talking to Him. Somehow I was calm and focused on exams eventhough I was lack of rest and sleep. It's pretty much obvious with the popping pimples and HUGE eyebags. I actually felt happy during exams. I know I am crazy but I enjoy doing both papers today. I don't know what's the outcome but I guess I will wait for it :) The song "This Is How We Overcome" by Hillsong was playing in my head over and over again the whole day. I love the song :)

The heat was so horrible that I complained to 20 cents. He brought me a table fan and it used to belong to Phoebe and Junior. FYI, Phoebe and Junior are 20 cents' babies aka dogs. I dominated their fan. I am such a bad bad bad person. I am going to return it back when the heat subsides a bit. Hehehehe.. I am a DIVA wo. Lol..

I am going to be busy after exam. Like super duper busy. I need to clean my room. I need to attend wedding. I need to hang out with my friends. I am so excited. THREE more papers to my FREEDOM. I can do this. Off I shall to bury myself into my books..

I Dug These Out...

Found this in my desktop and I found it quite amusing. I didn't change much. So sad lo..all my friends so pretty and all and I am the same but I am happy because I am still the same old me.


I was 12


Don't ask me about my hair


Farewell for Huw after STPM


First time meeting the KSCB-ians


With Tim from Rotaract Hawaii


Practice for Public Speaking drama


Photography class


Starstruck. Met Shayne Ward!!!

Last but not least, my favorite picture of all...


My very first picture with 20 cents :)

Damn.. I miss the old times..

Weather Killing Me Softly...

The weather has been horrible. It's so hot that I think I can fry an egg outside. I am falling sick because of the drastic change of the weather. I am pampered. I cannot tahan the heat one. It's not helping when my room is not air-conditioned and I have only ONE fan. When I am sleeping, I will sweat and sweat. It's as if I get nightmares but I did not because most of the times, I would be awake. I drank so much water but still my lips are so dry and it's just started to bleed. Sigh..

To make it worse, my Aunt Virginia came to visit me and it would last at least for FOUR days. This would include during my final exams days. Stress plus menstrual ain't exactly the best combination. Besides being grumpy and bitchy, stress would pile up and I would bite anyone off if they ever TRY to drive me up the wall. Then then, I have pimples all over my face. It's so horrible. I felt like the pepperoni on pizza. Sigh..HLML??!! I felt bloated like some helium balloon now. Double sigh..I am going to be so EMO!!!

20 cents, you have to bear with me ok? Just a few days only..promise to sayang you back when my Aunt Virginia goes off for her trip for another month. Wait..that would be TWO months because I would be away from you for ONE month. Sadnya..emo already..sigh!I think I am like attached to 20 cents ike super glue already. How how? Use cheronsene also cannot take off the super glue. Hahaha..stick there forever and ever d. No turning back. Lol..20 cents, you got no excuse but to bear with me already. Hehehe.. I know you love me being stick to you like super glue right? Right?? *forces 20cents to say Yes with a fork*

Finals is next week. I have FIVE papers to brave through before my FREEDOM can start. Starting from Tuesday with Principles of Interviewing and Entrepreneurship & Small Business Management followed by Intercultural Communication and Writing for Media on Wednesday. And the very last paper would be Marketing Principles. I am already booked for Thursday for swimming and shopping for wedding gift. Then Friday and Saturday got wedding to attend. I am looking forward to a church wedding. I never seen one before. After wedding would be cleaning the room and hanging out with friends before I go home to Ipoh.

I am jetting off to Melbourne on the 14th of May. I am so excited. One week of fun and photography opportunity for myself. I miss taking pictures so much. My hands are so itchy now that I want to take gazillion of pictures during the holidays. I think my skills a bit rusty already. It's been long I took pictures. I have a goal. I am gonna make sure that I would take pictures every single day in Melbourne and Sydney and and and take over my Uncle's camera for camwhore. Hahahaha... I rock! Don't ask me for souvenirs. No money..in fact, I dislike people who like to ask me for souvenirs when I am travelling. Hello???!! I am a student with a budget. If I want to spend also spend on my family and close friends first la. Any random and mutual friends would not be in souvenirs list. Like whatever...

Yesterday after church, went bowling with 20 cents' family AGAIN. I didn't play because I didn't know and I didn't bring socks. I ended up finishing a chapter of Writing for Media in bowling alley. Say I am good. Hahahaha.. and I had Takoyaki after so long. I miss eating Takoyaki in Jusco supermarket with 20 cents. It's been sometimes we went pak toh in the malls. I make sure I will spend some time with him after my exams.





I am off for studies and then, shower and then dinner with 20 cents. Then then, more study and study till I am tired. I would be happy after that. I have my 20 cents with me to teman me study till I am tired. Hahahaha.

I Never Conquer This Fear....

I cried in church today. It wasn't exactly something I am proud of. Messages given by Pastor Margaret was awesome. It's about being myself and being successful. She shared to us about how God made us a success and NEVER a failure. She is true. Everything goes back to God and ourselves if we want to be successful.

She prayed for the ones that has not accept Jesus in their lives yet today. I was one of them. Those who has not accept Christ shall go to the front for the prayers. Everyone encouraged me to do so. Flor even volunteered to go with me. 20 cents made me go as well. I refused. I refused to even get up from my seat. I said no to all requests asking me to go to the front. Even Pastor Sally and Pastor Elisha asked me to go but I didn't budge at all.

I would go when I am ready. Part of me didn't want to go is because of this fear of mine. I got fear for stage fright. In college and school, I can present to everyone because they are people I know and the crowd was so small. It wouldn't make me scared or something. I do get nervous but I tried so hard to hide it. I tend to forget what I want to say every time I do a presentation. It's always like that.

20 cents knew I don't like the stage but he made me go. I was angry. I knew his good intention but he knew my fear. Why force me to do something I did not like? I was angry at him for awhile. My anger towards him never last long because I love him too much to not talk to him even for an hour. I cried in the hall. I cried in the lift. I seriously do not like to be in front of the public accepting Christ. I believed that if I want to accept him. It would be something private and personal.

It's a huge step and leap for me to be in front of the public. I am not used to such thing yet. I do not like to be around strangers. I knew she is a pastor and she is praying for me. But the gap was just there. Part of me was afraid of her because she is a stranger to me. Even in church, you would see me being quiet and all. It's my nature. I tend to be reserved when I am not close to that particular person yet. I will only be noisy or even talk a lot when I get close to that particular person.

The boyfriend said I jual mahal during courtship. I wasn't lo. He was someone new to me. It takes time for me to get comfortable to him. It's not about me jual mahal lo. It takes time to build a new relationship. Be it with friends or someone special, it takes a lot of time..at least for me.

And I am sorry that everyone had to avoid me today because I cried. I cried when I am scared. I cried when I am stressed. I cried when I am angry. I cried when I am frustrated. Besides writing, crying is my next alternative to express myself. Yea..I know I am unique.

99 Balloons

I was browsing thru some blogs and I stumbled into Jolyn's blog. Then, I saw a post about 99 Balloons. She shared it to the world and I think I would want to share it as well.

This video showed a baby boy named Eliot who had Edwards Syndrome. Edwards Syndrome is a genetic disorder caused the 18th chromosome. Usually, people who has this syndrome would not live long. This strong baby Eliot lived through 99 days under the care of this caring parents.



They celebrated his birthday everyday in that 99 days. I was touched by this video that I cried. Baby Eliot was a strong baby. He managed to fight his syndrome for 99 days. It wasn't easy but he managed. He is now back to the side of Jesus but I believed he had 99 days of happiness together with family and friends.

Sometimes in life,we take things for granted. We shut people off our lives because they are a tad different that we thought they should be. I bet some of us didn't even know what is Edwards Syndrome. By creating awareness about all these would be a step to a better world. Learning about something new everyday would definitely make a change to the world. That is the least we can do..

Saja Nak Blog..

My final exams is next week from Tuesday to Thursday. 5 freaking subjects crammed into three days. HLML??!! I hope I would be able to go through this phase of exam this time. It ain't easy when I am pushing myself off the limits that I am capable of. I been hard on myself because I did not want to get bad CGPA. Yes, everyone..a freaking 3.03 CGPA is not good. At least for me, you guys probably think I am so ungrateful brat thinking that 3.03 is bad and all. In case you do not know, I am damn ambitious. I want my 3.7 CGPA back to me AGAIN!!

I was in class today or was it yesterday.. Joanne, my classmate came up to me and said..

"Su Ling, you OK or not? Why so angry ah? I read your blog. Chill ok?"

I was like wow..I never knew my college mates read my blogs. I always thought my rantings are read by my friends from school and yes, the boyfriend. He has to take it TWICE. Once on the blog and the other one through me. Yes, I like to repeat myself to him. To Joanne, I am alright. Just some mood swings getting to me lately..no worries... I am all good now. Thanks for asking :)

I had awesome Hakka Mee for dinner just now. It was brought to me all the way from Seremban. Hehehehe..thanks 20 cents and also Aunty Heidi :) I feel so loved. Then camp awhile in Mcdonalds with 20 cents then left after getting my Mcnuggets fix. I felt loved today. Glorious food for myself. Did I mention that I finished 2 HUGE bowls of Pan Mee today for lunch? I am such a glutton. Lol..

I was at home after lunch. I opened the Bible and it landed on this particular page. Best part, one verse caught my eyes immediately. I want to share this with you all.

"But I tell you, Do not swear at all: either by heaven, for it is God's throne;"

-Matthew 5:34 -

Is God trying to tell me something? I wonder..perhaps it's a sign to tell me to stop swearing both verbal and non-verbal. It's so hard to change drastically. I shall try to refrain from swearing. Maybe I can do it. I shall just pray hard for determination. :)

Oh yea..one more thing, these pictures are dedicated to MissMynx and Andrew..and don't hate me because I know you guys love me a lot. Hehehe...


Mushroom Beef Pita


So good, so yummy, so awesome


Only at RM4.30 :)

Are you tempted already? Hehehehe..

Growing Old..

I was reading the news online and I found this really interesting piece of news about this grandpa stealing anti-aging cream in Jusco in Kepong.

This grandpa is 63 years old this year. He was caught for stealing 3 bottles of anti-aging cream. He is doesn't want to pay to look younger but he still wants to look younger? A bit absurd for a 63 years old grandpa wanting to be young again right?

I believe this a very vain grandpa. If you ask me, why fight against the nature of growing old? Perhaps I would say this because I am still young but growing old means you are growing wiser and experienced in many sorts of things. In this case, this grandpa is not so wise. I always think that my grandparents are the best looking grandparents around. They are wrinkly and old but I adore them no matter how they look like.

Growing old is a phase of life we will eventually go through someday. It's a matter of time. I wouldn't fight against it though I might complain and whine about wrinkles but still, I would believe that those wrinkles and saggy skins of mine are the living proof that I have experience and suffer enough to be a wiser person one day. Kan?? I still love my grandparents no matter how they look like. I am super close to my grandparents. Shit..I feel teary now. I miss them so much. My grandpa is no longer here. I mean..my Dad's dad..I miss him so much.

My grandpa was the one that taught me English when I was a kid. I learn about Present Tense, Past Tense and Principles Tense from him when I was 8. He pampered me like any grandpa would do their own grandchild. He always pack food and soft drinks for me and my sister. He was the one that picked me up from school every afternoon. He was the one that gives me money when he strikes lottery. I always thought he is a superhero and he wouldn't die because he did this and that for me when I was a kid. One day, he left me and the world. I was devastated. It's hard to grow old and eventually leave the world and also your loved ones. But I believe He wants us to go back to His side in heaven one day. I won't mind.

I still have my Grandma. Hehehe.. I am jetting off to Aussieland with her in May. By the way, my Grandma looks super young for her age and she doesn't need any anti-aging cream. Like how that 63 years old grandpa..as for that vain grandpa, he was jailed and fined. Wonder what would his family members said to him...

My Latest Obsession : Mushroom Burger

I have been angry and emotional lately. It's all because of me trying very hard to achieve the best for myself. I been pushing myself very very hard because I want to graduate fast so I won't burden my family. It's not easy for myself because my capability is beyond my expectation. Sigh..

Anyway, I want to talk about something that cheer me up for the moment. Last night, Mcdonalds decided to close early so I had no choice but to go home and do my work. I was hungry and I didn't want to eat Mcdonalds. So we passed SS15 and there is this uber awesome possum burger shop called The Burger Shop in front of the market. It's located opposite Berry Passion shop. It's a small little van. So many people was crowding the van.



So, I pestered 20 cents that I want to eat. I ordered Mushroom Beef Burger. Let's just say.. I made the BEST decision ever. It was one of the best Ramly burger I had in KL. It was damn good. They cooked the mushroom with onions and seasonings. Then, the beef was cooked to perfection with soy sauce and pepper. The buns were grilled with a bit of butter. The smell was just heavenly. To make it better, they use some mushroom soup sauce from Campbell to top the fillings added with mayonnaise, chilli sauce and lots of vegetables.



The burger was like sooooooooooo tall so I used fork and spoon to eat the burger. Hahaha..I didn't want to dirty my hand either. It was just good. I was licking the spoon and fork. I can still remember that great taste melting in my buds. Damn.. I am craving for it already. It's not so expensive some more. It's only RM3.50. I am not joking about the taste. It's damn good.



Look for the van in SS15 and you will believe me. :)

And and 20 cents loved the smell so much that he needed to open the windows because the awesome smell was conquering his car. He has to tahan his cravings. Hahahaha..

Anger is Killing Me...

Have you ever been so angry that you do not know how to express your anger? That is how I am feeling right now. I am angry at myself and I am angry at everyone else. I had the urge to slap whoever that was talking just now in class. I had the urge to throw the plastic chair to those who commented with no brain used.

I am angry at myself for doing a last minute job for my presentation. I very well know that last minute job will end up with bad grade and bad criticisms. I knew it very well. I had no choice but to do last minute work. I was loaded with TOO MANY assignments. I don't know how to juggle everything by myself. I really was stressed out. I can feel myself getting moody and easily annoyed this semester. I can just fire at that person who talked to me or annoyed me. I HATE it when people asked me too many questions when I am occupied. I HATE it when people disturbs me when I said I do not want to be disturb. I HATE people depends on me to do work when he or she is damn free to complete it herself/himself. I seriously HATE it.

I am angry at other people for saying something very stupid in the class. There is this student in the class just now. He said..

"We put in a lot of effort to do this."

Hello???!!! As if the rest did not put a lot of effort in it. Then he mentioned something about how much time he spent to do the work. Excuse me.. I forfeited my beauty sleep for the presentation as well. You are darn lucky to be praise and I was criticized like nobody's business. It seems that my presentation was boring and draggy. Then, some idiot questioned whatever questions I asked in the video. Excuse me..you want to know more. You go ahead and interview that person and don't comment so much. Worst of all, disagreeing with whatever the interviewee said. Hello??!! Do I look like I know what is the interviewee thinking?

Then don't know which bloody fool just had to shout out that my presentation was boring. Just because yours was HIGHLY praised by the lecturer doesn't mean you are that good in this paper. We'll see how you do for finals. Damn..The lecturer isn't helpful at all. She compared this and that. Blah blah blah..if it's so easy, why not she goes ahead and do it? She is so ignorant that she thought we only have her assignments and we did not have other subjects to do. Seriously, I am doubting her and her teachings.

I can't believe I am ranting and complaining about college life. This semester wasn't my semester. Hopefully my grades would be ok? Sigh.. I could only sigh and work harder. I am trying so hard to calm down and refrain from being angry. Anger isn't easy to control at all. I did not scream or shout nor use any foul in this post. I am consider improving already.

I better work harder for the rest of the semester. Finals is next week. Wish me luck :)

I might delete this post. I want to let out my stress and anger. It's not definitely not OUT yet.

Hello Dunia!

It's 6.41am now. I finally finish my video for my presentation tomorrow. It's now publishing into Windows Media Player. I am so happy now that I am going to dance. Hahaha..I am actually very awake now. Not sleepy at all..

I had Mushroom Beef burger in SS15 for supper now. Detox diet phailed badly. I was stressed out ok? Pimples are popping on my face like nobody's business. Deng..Eh, why my video not publishing? Sigh..why suddenly like that? Giler 12% loading only..it's not moving at all. Please don't do this to me. Sigh..it got stuck at 12% :(

I am going to wait till it loads finish only I sleep. I am skipping morning class. I don't have a choice. Sigh!

No mood to blog d :(

[updated] It's loading now after a few trials and errors. I was praying to Him when I was sleeping just now. I had only 2 hours of sleep and I am not tired. I prayed to Him to help me load my assignment so I would be able to pass it up later in class. He answered my prayers and it's loading 50% already.

It's ironic how someone like me didn't believe in God actually prays. I prayed in my mind and heart. I asked Him to help me out with my assignment. I need to publish it so I would be able to pass it up. He answered my prayers. It make me realized something as well. He gives me peace as well. When I am calm, I think better despite the 2 hours of sleep.

Hallelujah!

Weather Yang Teramat Panas

I will be off to college in awhile. The weather is so hot that my fats can melt under the sun anytime. Formal clothes and sun do not go well. HLML??!!

My umbrella pulak not big enough to cover me from the bad bad sunlight that might kill me anytime. I just had Herbal Tea. That will be vaporized once I stepped out of the house. Damn..I a not exaggerating. The weather is so horrible. I think I can detect the heatwave now. My temper is horrible when the weather is horrible. Aaaaahhhh..

Later got presentation some more. I think I will go late. I beh tahan the weather. I shall leave home at 3.30pm. Though the weather was the worst at that point of time. Why la I don't have a car?? Then I can drive and save myself from the heat. I got heat rashes that day because of the weather. Now some more want to make it worse..bagus bagus..let me be cover with rashes during such crucial moments of my life.

If KL's weather is so bad, Ipoh is even worse. Luckily I am off to Aussie for a week for that cold cold weather. I rather froze to death than die from heat. Seriously...

On a happier note, I am meeting up with 20 cents tonight for dinner. And and I found a damn cute picture of him during our courtship. Hehehe..



Nothing to rant d. I better go shower now. Wtf!

I Feel Like A Housewife

I just finish eating my VERY healthy dinner. I cooked Kangkung with Garlic, ABC Soup with no meat and one sausage with pepper all over. I felt happy for once that I am eating healthy. I love eating a lot of vegetables and fruits but cooking for one isn't that easy. You have to calculate for gas and the groceries as well. Groceries for one doesn't come cheap. I usually buy in a bulk and separate it for a few use.

I bought one huge cabbage today. I cut it into a few parts and pack it into plastic containers. I can use to cook soup or noodles. It's not hard but it takes a lot of time to wash, cut and pack. I don't mind as long as I am eating healthily. I so need to lose some weights before I go to Aussie and indulge on the awesome possum seafood in Sydney. And I need to fit into my jeans. I miss wearing my jeans.

Anyway, my dinner was awesome. I cooked it all by myself. I am so proud of myself. Hahaha..I cook, I wash, I pack and I clean. Later I am going to do my laundry. Hahaha..then, I am going to throw rubbish as well. I need to clear off something on my floor. I am not exactly a person who enjoys cleaning but I have no choice. Suddenly I feel like a housewife. To make it worse, I am dressed up in baggy clothes and I tied my hair into a bun. OMG!!!Can I not be a FULL TIME housewife next time? I want to work as well.

My day started with me waking up at 4.30am. I was sweating when I was sleeping. Thanks to the heaty weather. I was gulping down water until 7am. I was freaking thirsty. Then, I woke up 20 cents for church but I had to skip it because I don't feel so well. 20 cents went back to sleep and skipped church as well. Lol..he must be tired from studying. Then, we went for lunch in SS15. We went for Pork Noodles. We waited for 40 minutes but it was all worth it until...

Something ruined my lunch. I was eating happily and when a few tables in front were making noises. I thought it was a cockroach so I was like whatever. I continue eating. Then, I saw this teeny weeny rat on this uncle's slippers. I was like shit shit shit..I told 20 cents. Got rat wei.. I put up my legs onto the chair immediately. It ran to the next table and then under 20 cents' chair and omg..it ran to the corner next to my chair. I screamed. It was gross ok? Freaking gross..when I screamed, I tell you..the whole SS15 can hear it. It was loud ok?

Then, I shifted to the other side of the table. The waiter in the shop kept on poking the little rat with a stick. I think it died after that. When he swept the dead rat out, I saw the bloody body on the dust pan. I was practically traumatized. My hands were shaking and I had no appetie after that. I was hungry but I can't eat. Images kept on flashing onto my head. 20 cents wasn't helpful. He laughed at me. Ish..I know la.. I screamed very loud but you can't blame me. I was really scared.

My legs were jelly after the lunch. We went to Carrefour to do my grocery shopping. We passed the Durian corner. I hate Durian. I seriously don't like the smell. It smelled like leaked gas. And yes, I am not a true Malaysian. Like whatever..Suddenly 20 cents said something that I gave this face to him.

-_________________________-""

20 cents: Next time our wedding dinner, we must have durian as dessert.
Me: Don't want la..so smelly. You know I don't like it.
20 cents: If you don't eat means no give face to our guests wo.
Me: Cannot have durian. I will have ang moh as guests wo.
20 cents: Who?
Me: My friend from Aussie. He ang moh ok?
20 cents: Then, too bad la..
Me: Ish..

Then I got back to him and he gave me that face after the convo. Hahaha..

Me: Boyfriend, next time our wedding hor..we use brocolli as flower ok? Can eat and it's healthy.
20 cents: Very funny ah..
Me: I am serious ok?
20 cents: Ish...

That concludes my typical day. I am off for some cleaning and then, assignments and more assignments.

We Are 5 Months Old

It has been a great 5 months for 20 cents and me. I like the fact that me and him have this mutual understanding. I do the talking most of the time. He doesn't talk much. But when we really talk, there is always a lot of interesting topics to talk about.

Our day started with us going to the Holy Place for Youth service. Then lunch in SS2. After service, we went to Pappa Rich to yumcha with some friends. After that, we headed to a mental home in PJ. The mental home is called PJ Caring Home. They were celebrating their 8th Anniversary there.

Seriously, I never been to a mental home. In fact, I wasn't exposed to all these at all. I visited orphanages, old folks home and spastic homes but not a mental home. I always thought people with depression or mental health will be send to asylum. I guess I was wrong..most of the patients in this home looks like any regular people you see on the street. What we don't know is that they are suffering from mental health. You won't know till the caretaker of the home tells you.

I was observing around. What makes these people suffer mentally? I knew some were genetics but what about the rest? I saw this really old uncle. He seems normal to me. A little girl offered a small piece of cake to him. He smiled and told the little girl to enjoy the cake. When the little girl was eating that cake, he was staring at her with sad, sappy eyes. Was this uncle abandon? Did his family abandon him because he is "sick"?

The boyfriend told me that there is a pair of mother and daughter in this home. They looked after each other there. Where are their other family members? Why did they leave them there? Thoughts pouring into my head..I seen so many young adults staying in this home. Why they are there? They should be enjoying life like how I would. There is this lady. She is probably older than me by a few years. She was looking herself in the mirror adjusting her hair and make ups. Why is she there? What sort of factor brings her there? How can her family and friends be so cruel and leave her there alone?

The night was filled with laughter and fun but deep down inside, sadness and sorrow probably would be their only feeling. Most of them were dancing happily and singing along with the band. They played games. They ate happily. They smoked happily. The home was like a chimney. It seems that they smoked to release stress. I am glad that 20 cents brought me there. At least, I learnt something. But what I was glad about that..at least they have a night of fun and they were truly happy.

The generous sponsors of the home, I know one of them..they are doing a great job by involving their employees as well and of course family. I would have known about this if it's not because of 20 cents and his family. I am glad that I was there. The only thing I could do to help is probably creating awareness to other people.

My day was well spent. At least, I learnt something. And I am grateful that I am blessed with a good life. I have my own flaws but heck..my flaw is nothing compared to these patients. My flaw is physical but theirs are emotional. I can correct my flaw despite the problems but still, I am emotionally well. I am very glad to be blessed with good emotions.



Oh yeah, I got my FIRST Bible from Aunty Heidi and Uncle Danny. Thanks a million! I started reading on Matthew :) and and it's a NIV. I like the story about Salt and Light. I kinda understand it in my own interepretation.






And and one more thing,

HAPPY 5 MONTHS, BOYFRIEND!

Have I Tell You That I Am Uber Bitchy Now??

I just feel damn bitchy suddenly that I want to bitch about every single thing that crossed my mind at the moment. I need to let it out so I would have a clear mind for my assignments and church tomorrow evening. I am getting a Bible soon. Woohooo..

Anyway, back to the bitchy-ness I will exposed today..

#1 - I woke up today and was hoping to go to college to catch up with my friends before I headed off to KL with my twin brother for our assignment. I was at the bus stop for ONE freaking hour under the hot scorching sun. I practically melt. I think I was melting already. I was sweating. I was thirsty. I was hungry. I was grumpy. I was basically in a very BAD mood. The freaking Rapid bus driver made us wait for ONE hour so that he will depart to KL. Jio Mai!!!

#2 - Like OMG, I met someone who is so intellectual but yet so immature. You know what I mean? Like this someone studies till like so hebat with great CGPA and all but the attitude like shit. I mean SHIT. I paling tak suka mingle with people who is sooooooo smart but yet so nooby at the same time. So that friend was dumped into the black hole in the corner of my universe. What turf! It sucks to be that person. Hahahaha..

#3 - My flu is in a horrible condition. It felt as if water tap has been running for so long that nobody gives a shit to close the tap. I took 2 Panadols last night but it is still running. I tell you if there is a championship for nose running, my NOSE will WIN for sure. I wasted like don't know how much of tissues. Sigh...goodbye trees in Amazon!

#4 - I had class yesterday. I was supposed to present my movie assignment. Some noobie group did the same movie with another group. I ended up have to wait till next week to present. KNN The lecturer insisted them to present so she could compare. I don't mind that BUT BUT I was there before them. Then, this other group who presented freaking waste like damn a lot of times because their stupid videos are not playing. Then, don't play it la. Niamah! They insisted to play it again and again so WE ALL can view it. Nobody gives a fuck about the presentation. I tell you la..when I present, you won't give a fuck either. You mahai group bitch about my presentation last month. Karma!!!!!

#5 - Rashes all over my body. Deng..wonder why..peanuts? How la my life? I am soooooo going to detox those toxins away from my body. Anyone wants to sponsor me gym or whatever detox drinks or prunes or whatever detox stuffs? Please email me. wtf..

Enough already of my bitchy-ness for today. I am going to blog about happy stuffs in the next post.

Be right back in another 10-15 minutes. wtf!

Wish My Weighing Scale Lies To Me...

I went on the weighing scale last night. OMG!! I can't believe I gained that much of weights. Like seriously, it was one of the most shocking thing ever. Then, I realized how is my eating habits recently. I been eating late at night for dinners. My makan timing all SALAH. I can't fit into my favorite jeans some more. I felt like CRAP. I am so going to take Cabbage Soup for ONE freaking week before I go back to my hometown.

Sometimes, I wish I have more determination to go for exercise and fight the temptation to eat those yummylicious food. Perhaps it's time for me to adapt that in my lifestyle. I need to be more health conscious. I don't want to die so early because of heart attack or high cholestrol or whichever nonsense they came up with. Medical terms gave me headache so yeah..any problems they came up with in that HUGE ass Medical book or something.

It sucks to see other people fit nicely into that dress I was eyeing since like forever. Worse come to worse, there are bazaars once in awhile and I can't believe I am not going shopping because I felt bad about how I look like. I really wish I would fit into my clothes nicely instead of tahan-ing my breath so I can fit into it. I was wearing my pencil skirt for formal presentation. It was freaking tight. It was loose a few months ago. I am some FAT OLD bitch chick who whine about her fats but never do anything about it.

It's not helpful when I eat when I am stress. I am like damn freaking stress now. I been grumpy and angry lately. I really didn't want to offend people. Sarcasm kicks in. Sorry to those who have been my victims. I can't stop myself from being mean for once. Damn..I get annoyed easily. People talking shit in front of me made me TULAN more than ever. I got less patience lately. I can't stand the sights of people repeating themselves again and again. Basically, I been bitchy lately. The hormones in my body decided to rebel this time.

I don't appreciate it either when people kept leaving me offline messages on MSN to ask to do this and that. Hello? Who the fuck heck do you think I am? I won't do because you fucking asked me to. Those people who kena virus from whichever site, for God's sake..please fix your MSN. It's so annoying that I have to click X and sometimes, it was so horrible that it kept coming in every 5 minutes. Seriously, are you people that ignorant about virus attacking your freaking computer? I am not being bitchy or whatever but seriously, it's damn annoying when it pops out when I am in the middle of a serious conversation for my work.

I am even annoyed writing this post. Mr. Grumpy decided to visit me in this 2 weeks. I should stop writing before the rebellious hormones decided to kick in for the night.

I am camping in Mcdonalds with 20 cents for my studies later. No.. I am not touching their food. I will get a drink and that's it.

1.30am

It's freaking 1.30am and I finished TWO presentations for tomorrow. I am uber happy. I finished my newspaper assignment as well. It gives me the moment of joy for being able to finish my work on time. I am damn happy with the final product.

I got one more documentary and one more presentation next week. Then I am off for my finals exams from 27th- 30th April. Wish me luck..

Then, I am off for semester break. I need to clean my room and settle everything before I go back to Ipoh and then head to Aussieland soon. I can't wait. I did a lot of things today. I felt so productive. Hahaha..

I even registered subjects for my new semester. I am retaking my Accounting I. Then I am taking Chemistry and Comm & Media Ethics. I really need to work extra hard for my Accounting I. I can't screw it anymore. I would kill myself IF I screwed it again. Planning to do some practices during the semester break. I hope I can do this than lazing around at home. Eventually my Mom will bising-bising that I did not help around not revise my work during the holidays.

Hopefully Mom will pay for my retake fee or I am going to die and I won't be graduating. I need to freaking finish my Accounting I to proceed with my finance papers. HLML??!!I better get second books as well. I don't want to waste money next sem. I am trying to save for holidays and shopping in bazaars.

There is Absolute Bazaar III this Saturday in 3K Inn Hotel, Subang Jaya. Do drop by. I wanted to but I can't. 20 cents doesn't let me shop. He said I need to refrain from spending this month. Hahahaha..I am going to miss my 20 cents when I am back in Ipoh for one freaking month. OK fine..3 weeks.. Hahahaha..

I miss him already. Damn..

Time to sleep and I shall wake up to a bright, beautiful morning. :)

Fmylife.com

I am currently outside my apartment blogging about this post. I am freaking locked outside my house. Eurgh,..wtf right? Some doink worker who came and fix the bathrooms freaking lock the door that I have no keys to.Bencinya..

Then, to make it worse, the management in my apartment area are spraying the anti-mozzie thingy. I can feel those chemical going into my lungs and I am going to die. It's freaking smelly and my eyes are teary. MCB!!!I can't believe I am online outside my apartment writing this post.

Worst of all, it's hot and I am an assignment due tomorrow. My laptop's battery is dying. You tell me la..HLML??!!Damn freaking bad luck today..eurgh..bencinya..

I was happily thinking about what am I going to cook for dinner and this just have to happen. I am suffocating on those smelly chemical. I have nowhere to go. There is nowhere else I can go. I have to wait like ONE freaking hour for my landlord to come and fix it. That is also IF the landlord can fix it. If not, I will be damn tulan.

Wait, I am already tulan..bencinya aku..

Fmylife!!

Think your day sucks? Think mine..damn..

Found Some Old Pics...

Awhile ago, a few of us went for Starbucks after dinner. After Starbucks in 32 Square, all of us headed home. On the way, 20 cents tire was punctured. He had an extra tire but his tools were all rusty. He quickly called his kawan seperjuangan dari Perang Vietnam. Hahaha..whatever that means. One punctured tire, 3 cars and a bunch of good ol' friends to help him out.


The cars parked for 20 cents punctured tire


Encik Beruang membaiki itu tayar

20 cents brought his camera along. So I snapped a few pictures during the process of changing tire. Hahaha..I know..like wtf right? Nothing better to do..seriously, nothing better to do mah..I don't even know how to change a tire. Lol..


Dengan semangat berkobar-kobar


20 cents is sad..wtf

After the tire is all set up and all, I told 20 cents..

"Boyfriend, these are the friends that will be there for you at good and bad times."

20 cents smiled and said..

"Baby, I know. "

I just meet his friends not long ago. I seriously think they are really nice bunch of people. Sometimes, I wonder if any of my friends would do such a thing for me. But you know what.. I am happy that I made new friends. You know who you guys are...though you all make fun of me but I am seriously glad that I met you guys.


All fixed thanks to his friends :)

See you guys in church soon :)

Me and My Weekend

My weekend started with me waking up for Youth Service in the evening. Yea. I am a very heavy sleeper during weekends. I need to catch up with sleep ok? After service, went bowling with 20 cents and his family. I didn't play because I can't play. I suck at sports. Then, I didn't like the idea of wearing shoes that has been worn by so many people. Imagine how many millions of bacterias staying in those fugly shoes.. I do not want to imagine anymore. Eeewww..

But it was fun watching 20 cents with family playing bowling. Cheering for each other and all. I feel loved everytime I hang out with his family. Perhaps I would give a try on bowling despite the eerie and horror I could think of wearing those bowling shoes..Dinner at Itallinnies again and I was uber full. I can see my tummy bulging even more.. It's already bulging and I ate like freaking a lot. I can't help it. I love pasta. Hahaha..

After dinner, 20 cents fetched me home. Guess what we did? We had an hour long of conversation about religion and God. I know..it's irony how someone like me who NEVER believe in God actually talks about God and trying to learn more about Him. 20 cents mentioned about how skeptical can one be when he/she grows older to actually learn the existance of God. I am one of the skeptical ones. I NEVER believe in God or any other religion. I equally respect all religions. I learnt about ALL religions I could and I freaking scored an A for that paper. Theory wise, I know a lot of things but practical wise, I am a noob.

I am fascinated how one can wake up early in the morning to go to church and praise Him. I definitely could not do it. I tried really hard to wake up at 7am but I ended up waking up at 8am. I am glad to wake up for early morning service. The part where I go to Sunday School to play with kids. I love kids!!! I miss playing with the ones where I used to teach. Anyhow, Easter 2009 is where I witnessed Baptism. I was like wow..I was being a jakun and all because I never seen one. One thing for sure, IF I were to baptize, I would prefer sprinkling than immersion. Sprinkling is when the pastor sprinkle you with holy water and annoite it with oil while immersion is you put your whole body into the pool and sink in for like 5 seconds.

Sometimes, I am angry at myself for searching high and low to believe and accept Christ. It's kinda frustrating knowing that I am trying so hard to accept Him into my life. I guess it takes time for a stubborn person like me. One thing for sure, I am learning and I actually like listening to sermons. Yea.. I believe I would find a place for Him one day in my heart. It takes time for one to believe in religion. I guess I am one pain in the ass. Hahahaha..

Hmm..

I Saw Mcd Menu Changed..

I stayed awake until 6.30am today. I was in Mcdonalds SS15 from 11.30am till about 5am for assignments and of course, to accompany my 20 cents to brave thru his assignments. I had one freaking Mcnuggets. I broke my oath to NOT consume nuggets for at least a month so I can bloody fit into my jeans. It's so sad to see myself sucking in my stomach for fit into my awesome Levis jeans. Sigh..Oh yeah, I saw the Mcd Menu changed to Breakfast Menu at 4am. Hahahaha..


20 cents love "see ham"


At Mcd SS15

I woke up at 9am just now. Then, I came to college for assignments with my group members. It's now 3.17pm and I am still doing my assignments. I am proud of myself for being productive for once though I was busy FaceBooking and Plurking researching for pictures and information for my work. And I know how to use Microsoft Publisher. Hahaha..yes, I was a noob in all these Microsoft thingy but I am willing to learn for the sake of my assignments. I am so proud of myself.

I am like half unconcious now due to the lack of sleep but I know I have to stay awake for my ASSIGNMENTS. No way I am going to screw it. Pimples pimples la. I don't care because my grades are more important than pimples now. This is my most stressful semester. I know I can finish this race. 3 more weeks before semester break. I have to finish this race. Resting is like minor next to my grades now. The other day, my landlord came to settle some piping problems in the apartment. He said women who are lack of sleep and rest are prone to breast cancer. I was like...

SHIT!!!

I don't want anything to happen to me. I belum kahwin. I belum pergi Aussie. I belum pergi Italy. I want to be healthy. AAAAAHHHHHH..I seriously must consider going for exercises before I jet off to Aussie for holidays. If only I can donate my fats. I would donate to those kids in Africa. Mine is totally nutritious because I freaking eat a lot of good things.


This is my classmate, Darren. His hobbies are farting and sleeping in class. wtf

I got 2 presentations and1 newspapers due next week. Then, 1 presentation, 1 writing portfolio, 1 documentary, 1 report and I am done for this semester. I can start studying for my finals already. I am so kan cheong already. Deng..

I better get back to my work. Terima kasih kerana membaca belog aku. Aku berundur sekarang. Oh yeah..

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY!

Nuffnang Music Bash 2009

I bet most people has blog about this awesome party already. I just had the time and mood to write about this. Was busy and emo about my crappy life. I am all good now. I just need more rest so I won't be grumpy.

Last Saturday, I invited my twin brother, Shaun to go to the party with me in Maison. We were thinking of capturing a video for our assignment. Mana tau we were lazy and the idea was scraped off. Regretting it now. KNN. Should have do it because it would be awesome possum to have a video from a live event for my assignment. HLML??!!


The entrance


The Holograms


PPC's friend, PinkPorkChop, Joanna, Lil Zoe and me

Ren picked me up and we reached early. We took some pictures at the entrance. Then, the red carpet picture before all the huge ass DSLRs are flashing their flashes at us because we are camwhoring. Lol. Anyhow, went in and camwhore a bit here and there.


Kembarku, Shaun


With the ever so tall Stanley


Met Darling Stephy


Liang, the awesome emcee for the party


Ren is back!

It's been sometimes I met some of my friends there. It was indeed a nice reunion and I get to meet new friends. I enjoyed myself a lot. It was fun and spacious enough for everyone. Obviously I didn't like smoking but I don't have a choice if I want to enjoy myself. Kan? It's nice when people came up to me and asked if I am Sue Me. There are actually people who follows my blogs once in awhile. Lol. I always assume my blog is read by friends, family and some of the Innit kakis.

Remember I made a video and all? I was one of the nominees. It was so embarassing when they played the video during the party. *Paiseh* I had to hide behind my twin brother. Hahahaha..The videos is now in one of the archive. Cari sendiri if you are curious. No way I am going to paste the link here for laughter...aaaaahhhh...nooooooooo..my friends in college laughed at me. Deng..Videos shall be posted only on my desktop. Thank you very much!


Inside the club


PPC's friend, me and PinkPorkChop


Yee Hou who claimed that camwhore is easy peasy


With Gorgeous Jane


Jeffro, a new friend I met there :)


He is Justin Timberlake


Joanna who is from my hometown :)


Nicholas gone hip hop

The food was alright. Games were fun but me being me will NEVER ever go on the stage. It's the ultimate fear of mine. Kudos to those who shake their booties on the stage. The Nuffies performed a song and a dance for the audience. Something new for the bloggers to see. There was even a performance by bloggers for the bloggers. They named themselves The Holograms. You can see the fehmes JoshuaOng and Andrew singing their hearts out to entertain us.


The Holograms entertaining the crowd :)


DustyHawk was being a pervertnice offering FREE hugs


With Tocky who came as Jason Mraz


Jess with her Gothic Amy Lee look

Then, presentation of awards and prizes to the bloggers who dressed up that night. Julian Hopkins put in a lot of effort to become Bob Marley and he won himself a Sony PS3. Uncle Yatz came as John Lemon Lennon won the Best Dressed Male and he has freaking RM500 shopping voucher now. Jolene came as Lady Gaga won the Best Dressed Female title. By the way, I see a lot of Jason Mrazs and Katy Perrys that night. It was like everywhere. Lol..who I went as? I went as myself :)


Nuffies performing "Let The Music Heal Your Soul"


Nominees for Best Dressed- Male


The nominees for Best Dressed


The bloggers who won the IPod Touch


John Lemon Lennon won RM500 Topshop voucher


Lady Gaga took home a Grammy RM500 shopping voucher too


Sam Vun who bagged the IPod Touch home

My night ended with good music, good friends and good old fun. Of course, it would not be complete if I don't see my 20 cents. Hehehe..oh yea..during the party, everyone kept asking me..

"Where is your 20 cents?"

He wasn't there. Hahahaha..he was sleeping happily at home.

I think I put ALL the pictures I had for the night into this blog post. Hahahaha..


With Katy Kate Perry


Tzelih came as Jonas Brothers. wtf


Met Tian Chad for the first time


With EV who came as Ashlee Simpson

I am looking forward for the next party already :) Thank you Nuffnang for the awesome party! and and I think I am damn photogenic. Wtf!