Blame Is Lame

I bet most of us blame on other things or other people when something happened. Right? Right? I am one of those people. When I get sick, I'd probably blame on the weather for being so unpredictable. The fact is I knew the weather went haywire and I knew I could do something about it but I blame it on the weather anyway because it's much more convenient to blame something than myself. There are a lot of things that I actually blame this and that when it's actually myself to be blame.

For example, one time I blamed a housemate for not paying electricity bills and our electricity was cut off. I remembered well that I paid her and I get all freaked out because I knew I would be home alone. I didn't say it to their faces but hey.. I do blame them for not being responsible. Thinking back.. I could have just pay the electricity bills by annoying asking them to pay to me and I pay it up because damn.. I was such a free student. What else? I blamed another housemate for being all noisy and disturbed my peace when I was sleeping during the wee hours.. but seriously, it was really their faults. I mean.. who the hell watched drama series during wee hour next to my room in a full volume? And the light sleeper in me could wake up with a teeny weeny noise and these housemates love to cook or even doing laundry at that hour. Like what the hell.. I blamed them. I could have just tell them off in a nice manner. Guess what? I moved out. Haha. I made a decision and I do not regret it. And these housemates were not even pleasant to stay with to begin with.

There are a lot of decisions in my life that I have had made. Not once I regret my decisions. Sometimes, I do ponder of what went wrong and what did I do wrong but trust me.. life goes on. If I were to regret of the decisions I made, I am such a wuss. I believe that being a decision maker and to decide something about my life.. I shouldn't have regrets. These decisions come with consequences, of course. Not pleasant I must say.. I lost a few friends here and there. I blame them for whatever they blame me. It's a cycle of life, I suppose. I hate you and you hate me for something that we hate. Logical? It is, to me.

There's some destruction in relationships when nobody wants to be responsible in a negative situation. Trust me.. I avoided some because I just can't do no confrontation. Sometimes, I wish I could turn back time and amend something but who am I to reverse what happened in the past. I was taught to forget and forgive. Forgive is easy but to forget is just hard. I met aplenty of assholes jerks in my life that I would just want to hack them into pieces of whatever they have done to me. But hey.. who the heck am I to blame? I am the one who get involved in such complicated relationships. I should be blame. I should open my eyes wide before making a decision to befriend with such idiots. Thank God for God that He open my eyes to make sure that I think twice about things in life. I learned my lesson that I should open my eyes wide before jumping into a faulty decision.

I am not perfect. I made a lot of mistakes in my life. These mistakes might come back to haunt me one day. I learned from my beloved 20 cents that past is past. Why bring up something negative to make the current life impossible? He is right. Mistakes I did in the past; I rather forget and move on with my life. I knew of the mistakes hence not repeating it. I do not understand why people enjoy digging up the past to make other people's life a horrid one.. does it make one feel better? Or is it just vengeance one is looking for? I recently had a situation where my past came back to haunt me. I felt like shitttttttttt and it wasn't fun to have guilt and all. It wasn't. But I blame nobody though I felt like I should do something to ruin that person's life who came about with that past. But I didn't. It was my fault, I supposed. And I should take the blame. After all, blaming other people is just lame.

And that idiot who came back with the past, idiot will always be idiot. God shall bless this person for he does not know what he is doing. Oh yea.. this person.. has been deleted and off my life like forever. It feels good to express what I have in mind. Whatever the price that comes with such a mistake, I am ready to accept it. If it means I'll lose a few friends in the process, I shall just accept such a verdict. I guess I am just too tired to deal with such a drama. If one doesn't know, I have enough dramas to deal with already.

So, if anyone ever want to come up with some excuses to blame someone or something, please think again. Blame is lame! Oh! What a life!

On an irrelevant note, I watched Justin Bieber's Never Say Never last night. It was soooooo good! I do not get the reasons of why he has so many haters. Come on.. he is bloody talented! I guess some people are just jealous of him hence the hatred. But I have a feeling it's the macho man mentality that started all this hatred. I don't give two fucks cents of whatever people want to say about my love towards Justin Bieber. But I think he is damn awesome! Justin Bieber rocks!

Here's a song to describe this post of mine.. Gotta love the chorus! "Who cares if you disagree? You are not me! Who made you king of anything? So, you dare to tell me who to be. Who died and make you king of anything?"


Sara Bareilles "King of Anything"