My Thoughts Are Bigger Than My Head

I am currently moving slowly to the next phase of life: WORKING. This chapter has been playing in my head for the longest time. I'd probably long for this chapter since I started university here in KL. I have my reasons of wanting to work so soon. Many told me to slow down and enjoy a little because once I embark the journey of working-hood, I would not have the time to enjoy. I actually realized the consequences of this chapter of life. I knew it since like God knows when because I have people reminding me about it constantly.

There are so many good reasons that I am looking forward to this chapter. As stressful and crazy as it is, I still love it. I do go all cuckoo once in awhile just having aplenty of thoughts in my head but it is all worth it. I believe that my thoughts are bigger than my head. With all these thoughts in my head, I am a really, really ambitious person. I have this small note that I stick on my cupboard of the goals I want to achieve. I achieved one, so far. I have finally graduated! Pretty good achievement eh? I graduated with a good results, I think.

The processes of this new chapter are rather difficult but I will achieve it all, for sure. No doubt about that. The applications and the updates of resumes as well as writing cover letters is just the beginning of this chapter. I seriously think it is an easy task with some help from my awesome friends, of course. You know what's the most tiring and frustrating stage in this chapter? Guess guess guess! It's the waiting that drives me nuts. Then, the job interviews and phone screenings will follow. I was unprepared but after a crucial lesson, I make sure I am prepared. I got one interview this Thursday! I am looking forward to it. Oh yea.. I am packing out my stuffs from my current rented room to a undisclosed location. We'll see what will happen to me in a month or so.

And I have yet to do things that I should be doing when I was back in Ipoh. I have yet to go for my driving refresher course. Damn. It's too crucial for me to learn to drive because driving is somehow important when you are in KL. But the issue here is I won't be getting a car anytime soon but I was urged to learn driving again as soon as possible. Oh the dilemma! I know I shouldn't be whining about not getting a car and all; but it's so frustrating to take public transportation sometimes. The waiting and the efficiency of our public transportation are just CMI (cannot make it!). The worst would be the people; some people are just plain rude by pushing into LRT or bus. Those who wanted to get out would have to shove themselves out because these kiasu ones rush in like nobody's business. Peak hours is madness! It's like going shopping during sales.

Talking about shopping. Shopping is stressful at this phase of life; especially for me. I spent hours searching and trying out formal tops for job interviews in just one store. Can you imagine the horror when none fits into me because my size was not so appropriate for the manufacturer to produce more fabrics for a top ?! Well, it's another way to tell me that I am FAT! I know labeling myself as FAT doesn't sound nice at all but that's the bloody truth! Can I just live in denial? But it's also a slap on the face that I need to do something about myself. Looking myself into the mirror is like watching a horror movie. It wasn't cool at all. I look like Michelin except that I have longer hair. Well, I am not blaming anyone for my weight gain. It's all my fault, seriously. I ate and ate without giving a damn about controlling and exercise. I spent most of my time sitting and eating in front of my laptop everyday when I am in KL. At least, I have finally come to confession that I gained a lot of weights. I guess it's still not too late to realize.

There's just so many things that I want to achieve once I start this chapter. I know it's not going to be easy but I will do it. I know I can do it! And I got the biggest supporter in my life, 20 cents to back me up when I needed him. And the biggest, biggest supporter ever is arranging great things for me. I just need to hold on to it and be strong with the chosen paths He has arranged for me. I can totally do this with His Help. I can't wait to update the great things He will be doing for me when I start the new chapter with a job.

For now, I just gonna chill a little.

I Am Still Alive!

It has been aeon years ago since I last updated. Ok.. a few weeks back. There's nothing much to do after I graduated. Actually.. there is a lot to do but I don't know where to start. Came back to Ipoh to rot while searching high and low for jobs. Not much of news at the moment. I did have a phone interview just now. I am unsure how it went because I wasn't prepared for it. Well, I think it wasn't so well because I was not prepared. Learned my lesson now.

I am going back to KL tomorrow to clear out my current rented room. I need to move out. Gonna bertumpang my stuffs at 20 cents' place while I hit back Ipoh to find another place to rent. Oh well.. moving in, moving out. It's no fun. I moved out like ermm.. 3 times. Packing and throwing aplenty of things in the process. It's a good thing; I don't have to sit and stare at things that gives me negative past of mine. Oh well..

Had a good chat with Weng Weng just now. Weng Weng is the bestest friend of mine after 20 cents, of course. It's always nice to chat with Weng Weng despite our time zone differences. We used to talk and talk about everything under the sky and him being in another continent sucks. On a bright side, when I do visit him, I get free meals and accommodation. Haha.. I am undergoing a phase of life where I needed to talk like a lot to someone who actually care of what I am going through. I am seriously thankful that He blessed me with great people in my life. People who helped me in my job applications processes, people who gave me advices and people who listen when I needed someone. You know who you are...

Just found out about this song from Weng Weng.. pretty cool song.. if I like it, it's cool. Haha..


Anna Nalick - Breathe (2AM)

Time to pack for KL.

A Letter to the Naive 16 Years Old Me

Everyone is doing this so I wrote one too! Woot woot!

Hello 16 years old me,

When you are 16, you are somehow labeled as a nerd because of the ugly pair of glasses your Mom got it for you. You can't stand the ugly glasses so you change to contact lenses. Some people still call you nerd which sounds really absurd because you are not smart nor you look like one. Maybe you are just such a good and obedient student. Oh well.. you usually brush off those comments though you secretly want to shut off all those annoying comments.

You will have a bunch of friends that you are close with. The ones that sit nearby you in class; you thought friendship is forever. But a few years down the road, you will lose some of those friends but you will gain even more better friends who love you for who you are. As for the class monitor and assistant class monitor in your class, they will be your future bridesmaid when you get marry in the future. You have friends here and there but not all of them will understand you but the very few people you would want to invite to your wedding. You bet they know who they are if they peep into this letter.

Boys boys boys! You have aplenty of crushes when you are 16. Boys from other schools somehow look cuter because your hormones is acting up to ask you to feel the puppy love. You will go against the puppy love nonsenses knowing that none of them are genuine love. A few years down the road, you'll experience broken hearts and dramatic break ups until you meet this guy who you thought you will never love. He will be your boyfriend when you are 22 and he will love you despite all your flaws. Perhaps, both of you will spend the rest of your life together which secretly is one of your dreams in the future.

You will hate Additional Mathematics and Modern Mathematics but you will remain to be in Science stream until you graduate from high school. You will fail all your Math and Science papers countless times but eventually you will pass it in SPM because you are just awesome. Ok.. maybe not so awesome.. the exam department somehow lower the marks so you pass. And you thought you are going to be a writer but down the road, you will choose to climb the corporate ladder instead. After all, you will finally realized that corporate is your thing and that's how you will earn a lot of money and great experiences.

At 16, you are probably the most rebellious kid around. You never bother listening to comments that do not sound pleasant. You never give a damn of what your parents tell you to do. Sometimes, you do think they are right but heck, your egoism has blinded your senses. A few years from now, you will be away from them for university. You will go home less because you still the rebel.. cannot stand home and nasty comments at home. You will wish to be back in the place you used to hate and live away from the chaotic life back in your home. You still appreciate and love your family but sometimes, you just want to be alone. You are more like a loner but you do have a lot of friends that love you and you adore them a lot too. And most of all, you miss your Yeh Yeh who left to be with the Lord when you were 12.

You never believe in religion because you think it's too much to digest for a 16 years old. You believe in yourself. You do not believe in people who try to convert you to some religions which you are against of. But when you are 22, you will Christ as your Savior and you will be baptized on Easter when you are 23. You will have Him to guide you through all the struggles you are bound to experience. And He will bless you with a great bunch of great friends who will be there for you when you need them the most and of course, you will have your boyfriend whom you love a lot too. And you will call your boyfriend 20 cents because he is so cute like that.

At 16, you are jealous of your pretty friends who boys love. You wish to be them. You wish to be as popular as them. But as you grow older, those doesn't bother you anymore because brain is more important. And damn, you are right. You will graduate with a good CGPA that makes you smarter than a lot of those who you used to be jealous of. But oh well.. you will gain a lot of weights and trying really hard to lose because of family pressure. Oh heck! You are 16. You are a teen like most teens out there. So, you will go through aplenty of drama because you know what you really want in your life.

You will experience more things in your life as your grow older. You will have Him in your life as He has arranged great things for you. You just need to follow your heart for the best and you will do just fine.

Lots of love and hugs,
The 24 years old you
(I am only turning 24 in August but heck!)

Buckets Artisan Ice Cream at The Strand

The weather was extremely hot that I actually sweat in an air conditioned room. So, I bought an ice cream deal from MilkaDeal. 2 tubs of homemade ice cream for RM21. Pretty good deal eh?

Retrieved it in The Strand in Kota Damansara. Boy, this place is located super duper inside in The Strand. 20 cents and myself were greeted by their friendly employees who allowed us to try every single ice cream flavor available. I personally love the Coconut flavor where you can bite on the coconut flesh. Yummy!


20 cents enjoying his ice cream :)

Bought extra scoop of ice cream while waiting for our tubs of ice creams to be filled up. I ordered Black Sesame Ice Cream and damn.. it tasted like black sesame tong yuen. It's so good! 20 cents ordered his and he said the waffle cone was delicious. It's not the hard type but the crunchy yet soft type. He loves it. According to the lady who served us, all the ice cream made has no coloring and preservatives. The ingredients used for the ice cream are fresh and of good quality.


Black Sesame Ice Cream

We brought back two tubs of Banana and Durian flavor ice cream. It was so good! For once, I actually eat Durian Ice Cream. I don't have much pictures because my camera's battery were out when I wanted to snap more pictures. But I will definitely go back there for some tasty delights!


Banana Ice Cream with Nutella

Yeah Baby!

I completed my degree like a week ago. It feels really weird that I am finally done. I was busy applying for jobs here and there; got two job interviews but rejected it because I wasn't interested with their job descriptions. I am not being picky but I am just not interested. Many might think that I am so cocky and picky for rejecting job interviews but the fact is just.. I want to work in an environment where I will like the job functions and all. I want to like my first job.

I've been "spending" my time, catching up with some old movies and dramas. And hanging out with some friends before I head back to Ipoh for some "me" time. I doubt I'll have some "me" time when I am back in Ipoh. I can see that there will some chaotic misunderstandings that will happen when I am back but heck.. I am hoping for the best. I am praying hard for some peace and support too. I have aplenty to do before I get a job and all. I seriously hope I'll get some job interviews soon. Like really soon. I am looking forward to earn some moolah already. I know it all seems so rush but I just do not want to be trapped in the procrastination era. It's going to be like Great Depression if I laze around much. I need to go for a refresher course for my driving because the last time I drove, I got pissed at 20 cents for scolding me.

I have been in frustration once I finished my final paper a week ago. I don't know what triggers my frustration. My anger was at boiling point; I think it was even hotter than the boiling water I used for my tea. Maybe it's because I was pissed at myself for not being so aggressive in job applications. Maybe I am in a dilemma to decide what I really want to work as. Or maybe I was in an issue that has been there for ages and I never bother solving it because if I ever solve it, it would probably be a miracle. There are so many maybes that I am going nuts now. Maybe I just have a lot of anger in myself. I mean.. who knows? I, myself, needs to find out the real cause to my frustration. Maybe I wasn't even frustrated to begin with. I am probably just annoyed with myself.

I have a huge pile of things to pack to hit home this weekend. That's like less than 24 hours or so. And here I am expressing myself rather than packing. Damn. I should stay awake the whole night to pack. After all, I am wise; you know like owls? Owls only stay awake at night and they are wise. Oh the lame joke! Oh well.. we'll see how will I progress into the next chapter of my life.. I bet it will be an interesting journey. As for the title for this blog post, I was inspired by Austin Power's line, "Yeah, baby!" Have been watching his old movies recently and it caught my attention hence the usage of the line. Yeah baby!

I Am Officially Unemployed!

Not exactly unemployed because I have another paper to complete next Monday.. haha..

But once 9th of May is over, I am officially contributing to the unemployment rate in Malaysia. It will increase from 4% to 4.1% all because of this new unemployed fresh graduate. Ok la.. I know I am not exactly significant but heck.. you get my drift. I am currently actively applying for appropriate jobs for myself. I am actually looking forward to start working and start earning really fast. I know.. I know.. I get the statements from people that I will miss school once I start working because working ain't fun. I know.. I know.. but seriously, I rather be stress for something that I will get reward from. Besides, I do not fancy my university much. It wasn't pleasant enough for me to even bother joining the alumni.

For now, I'll finish off my last paper and cleaned up my current rental room. Then, hoping for calls for interviews and I will be moving forward to the next chapter of life. I can't wait! Wish me the best, you all!